Missing Mojo

MISSING MOJO ALERT! 

It happens to us all now and then and it’s my turn now.  Yes – my mojo is missing!

What’s that mean?

Well, I’m feeling a bit flat.  I’m overwhelmed with all my ‘to-do’s’.  You know that feeling – it’s all a whir, you can’t focus, you walk around in circles achieving nothing, and you know you need to walk away and come back when you’re fresher.  I’m uninspired and unmotivated.  I’ve run out of steam.  I need a change of scenery.  I need some digital detox time.  I need a break.  I need a holiday!

I haven’t had a proper holiday in a long time.  By proper I mean longer than a few nights and relaxing (not constant travelling about and touristing or sitting in all day conferences).  2019 was a great year for short trips away though and I’m so grateful for all those trips – I loved each and every one of them!  Last getaway was 4 nights in Cairns in September 2019, before that I’d had 5 nights at Stradbroke Island (with my sister and her children) and before that 2 nights in Sydney (blog related) and 2 nights in Melbourne (to see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child with my daughter).

I must also acknowledge the need to give myself a break – from negative self talk and being disappointed in myself for not achieving or being more than I am – because I am in the midst of huge hormonal change.  You name a symptom, I have it + some!   I feel that society in general underestimates exactly how tough this period of life can be for a woman.  There’s lots of positives about this stage of life but no sugar coating from me – perimenopause/menopause is not one of them – for me anyway – because I always tend to get worse case scenarios!  It’s been and continues to be tough!

Then there’s all the trauma that 2020 has dished up thus far.  This post and this post explain though I’m sure you know what I’m referring to.  Add in all the ups, downs and demands of life (including illness) and give it all a little stir and yes – I need a nice quiet relaxing holiday!

Please forgive me if I haven’t replied to your email or liked or commented on your posts or linked up to a linky etc.  It’s not intentional.  I’m just really struggling to keep up with everything at the moment.

I have booked 6 nights away at Kingscliff at the end of March/early April.  It’s not a super long holiday but it’s a good chunk of time in a place that will soothe and relax me.  I can’t wait!  I made a point of making the booking outside of school holidays – for obvious reasons.  Thanks to everyone who provided suggestions for a beach getaway location for me in response to this post.  They were all fantastic suggestions, but at this time (with the virus threat etc) I need to avoid air travel and decided to revisit Kingscliff in northern NSW where I haven’t been in multiple decades!  It’s changed a lot since I was last there and I have wanted to see my old friend again for some time.  It’s the perfect location for what I am needing right now – so Kingscliff it is.   

I look forward to long walks along the beach, lying about reading books, swims in the pool and at the beach, strolling and poking around the local shops and galleries, not cooking, and rediscovering Kingscliff and surrounding areas. I also might even get to meet up with bloggy friend, Kathy of 50 Shades of Age for the first time in real life, as this is where she lives.

I will have taken my latest foster kittens back, for desex and adoption, about a week prior and my heart will be hurting and I’ll be missing them dreadfully. This little getaway will be well timed and very helpful for this reason also.

I’ll post some pics on Instagram while I’m away and they’ll feed through to my Facebook and Twitter pages, but that is the only screen/social media I will do while I’m away.

In the meantime, before I go away, I am going to play it by ear.  I may or may not post again before I go.  I don’t know at this stage, but I’ll do whatever feels right for me.  I know that I need to lighten my load for now.  I often wonder why I put so much pressure on myself.  It’s not like I make money from blogging or that anyone would even really notice if I didn’t post one week.  But then in reality, I do know why I put pressure on myself.  I’m a perfectionist and I like to be consistent, dependable and loyal.  I don’t want to be lacklustre, inconsistent, unreliable etc.  On this occasion though, I’m taking the pressure off myself and what will be, will be!

Once again I must make reference to a favourite quote by John Burroughs that explains me so well:

I go to nature to be soothed and healed and to have my senses put in order.

And so it’s off to a beautiful place abounding in nature that I’ll go and I’m hopeful that I’ll find my mojo by the end of my stay, and if not, I’ll at least be a lot closer to finding it again!

What do you do when you lose your mojo and need some time out from day to day life when it all becomes a bit too much?

Ciao for now,